Not Neverland

Today was the first day toward the start of the rest of my life. Job searching. And not just a measly part-time job as a cashier or computer-watcher that I would dump as soon as I no longer needed it, but a real, serious "big girl" job. A job that I've been going to school for the past 4 years to obtain.
I'm a nervous wreck. I feel like a bumbling idiot when talking to managers, like I'm just repeating myself or making no sense at all or sounding false (or a number of other negative things). It's nerve-wrecking to think that the people I talked to today have the ability to control the path my life takes for the next few years. Do I even know what I want my life to be in the next few years?
Basically, this isn't Neverland, and I'm being rushed into growing up at full, rushing speed. And it's scary as heck.

Sometimes

Sometimes it feels like I have all the time in the world, yet no time to do anything. It's a really weird feeling, and it explains these next 2-3 weeks perfectly.

Month 1

So I started the 101 in 1001 list 1 month ago tomorrow, and I thought I'd give a little update on how things have been going. No goals completed yet, but they are in progress. :)

17. Watch 26 movies, each one starting with a different letter of the alphabet (1/26).

• Facing the Giants

31. Give someone a thank-you card once a month (1/33).

• I gave my mom a thank you card- she deserves it for so many reasons. :)
  

41. Learn one new word a month (1/33).

• Panacea (pan-uh-see-ah)- noun- a remedy for all diseases, problems, or evils; a universal medicine; a cure-all

99. Leave 50 Operation Beautiful post-it notes in random places (1/50).

As for life in itself, it's a little hectic right now. I'm still not loving the drive I have to clinical, but it's something that has to be done. I had scheduled to go into clinical yesterday and today, but I had to cancel because there was no way I would be able to make it up the "hill." So that puts me a bit further behind schedule than I had hoped, but I still remind myself that God has plans and reasons for everything. I have my first post-conference this week, so hopefully that will go well. Keep me in your prayers.

Ok

Today's been kind of a rough day. It started with finding out something about my schedule this semester that I really did not want to hear and in fact had been praying would not happen.
But, I have to remember that everything is in God's hands and He has a reason for everything. I'm just praying that it all goes well.

Wishing, Hoping, Dreaming

I want this. It is I Love Lucy: The Complete Series 34 disc set in a heart-shaped (!!!) DVD container. I saw it at Target the other day, and squealed in the aisle. It's amaaaazing.