1 Goal Down

I had to update a little on the list now because I can actually say that I successfully completed one goal.

60. Create something for Hannah to put in her room.
Status: Complete
Date completed: 3/14/2010

I made Hannah a trinket/treasure box on March 12th and gave it to her on March 14th (thus the completion date- I considered it complete when I gave it to her). I really like how it turned out. I've always wanted to try using Modge Podge and scrapbook paper, and this was the perfect small project for that. I also got to use my new paper cutter. :) I'm such a dork when it comes to crafts, haha.

And I know that this is only one goal out of 101 completed (although I am incredibly close to finishing another), but it still feels great!

Waiting

I'm currently writing from the waiting room of the local cardiovascular intensive care unit (CVICU). And basically, the adjective that describes this room also describes what is going on in my life right now. Waiting.
Waiting on answers. Waiting on results. Waiting on guidance. Waiting on news. Waiting on whether or not my life is going to completely change. Waiting on my grandma to please get better.
I absolutely hate this. I truly do. I feel so raw. So exposed, confused, and hopeless.
I'm trying to keep something in mind that a friend I've become close to over the past month or so told me. Whether or not Grandma survives this horrible situation, Jesus died on the cross so she could be healed. And whatever the outcome, she will be healed, whether it's in Heaven with our Saviour or on earth here with us. She's going to be healed.

Month 2

Another month down, another update on the list. I still haven't completed one single task, but I've been working on them. I hope to complete one task over spring break, so we'll see. Anyway, on to the updates.
17. Watch 26 movies, each one starting with a different letter of the alphabet (3/26).

• Dear John (2-20-10)
• Facing the Giants
• Valentine's Day (2-12-10)
  

31. Give someone a thank-you card once a month (2/33).

• My mom (January 2010)
  

• My second thank-you card went to my preceptor for my Management clinical rotation, Loretta. (February 2010)

38. Go to the movies at least 5 times a year (2/15).

• Valentine's Day (2-12-10)
• Dear John (2-20-10)

41. Learn one new word a month (2/33).

• Panacea (January 2010)
• Gelid (jel-id)- adjective- extremely cold; icy. (February 2010)
  

Not Neverland

Today was the first day toward the start of the rest of my life. Job searching. And not just a measly part-time job as a cashier or computer-watcher that I would dump as soon as I no longer needed it, but a real, serious "big girl" job. A job that I've been going to school for the past 4 years to obtain.
I'm a nervous wreck. I feel like a bumbling idiot when talking to managers, like I'm just repeating myself or making no sense at all or sounding false (or a number of other negative things). It's nerve-wrecking to think that the people I talked to today have the ability to control the path my life takes for the next few years. Do I even know what I want my life to be in the next few years?
Basically, this isn't Neverland, and I'm being rushed into growing up at full, rushing speed. And it's scary as heck.

Sometimes

Sometimes it feels like I have all the time in the world, yet no time to do anything. It's a really weird feeling, and it explains these next 2-3 weeks perfectly.