No Excuse

While visiting the blog, I noticed it's been almost a year since I last posted. And like the title of this post implies, I don't have an excuse. I've thought about posting, I've had the post page up and started typing... I just have never fully written a post. And I don't have an excuse or an explanation.
Anyway, it's frankly been one heck of a year. And I wish I could say I've been happy with the year. But I can't. It's had its ups and its downs, but it feels like more of them have been downs. Especially when it comes to my job situation. I keep screwing things up and now I feel more unhappy than ever, but I'm praying for a resolution for that. I thought I was unhappy working at the hospital, but now I've realized that the old saying is true- the grass isn't always greener on the other side of the fence. Working at the hospital allowed me to actually have time off- a life outside of my job. My job ended when I clocked out. It was a job where I felt safe with my license, as compared to now. A job where teamwork really meant something. A job where people actually cared about their job and did it correctly... not where I had to correct or watch their work.
I keep feeling like all I do is complain now-a-days. And that's not me... I miss being myself.