No Excuse

While visiting the blog, I noticed it's been almost a year since I last posted. And like the title of this post implies, I don't have an excuse. I've thought about posting, I've had the post page up and started typing... I just have never fully written a post. And I don't have an excuse or an explanation.
Anyway, it's frankly been one heck of a year. And I wish I could say I've been happy with the year. But I can't. It's had its ups and its downs, but it feels like more of them have been downs. Especially when it comes to my job situation. I keep screwing things up and now I feel more unhappy than ever, but I'm praying for a resolution for that. I thought I was unhappy working at the hospital, but now I've realized that the old saying is true- the grass isn't always greener on the other side of the fence. Working at the hospital allowed me to actually have time off- a life outside of my job. My job ended when I clocked out. It was a job where I felt safe with my license, as compared to now. A job where teamwork really meant something. A job where people actually cared about their job and did it correctly... not where I had to correct or watch their work.
I keep feeling like all I do is complain now-a-days. And that's not me... I miss being myself.

Um.. Yeah.

So needless to say, this blog has suffered from some neglect over the past few months. So much so that if it were a child, I would have been carted off by DCS a looong time ago.
I'm not saying that this is going to be a full-fledged post either, but I do plan to provide one of those within the next few days. There's lots to talk about. I've completed nearly 8 more goals on my list of 101 in 1001. And there's been some pretty drastic changes in my life since my last post in March (some expected, some not; most good, some not-so-good). And there are still changes to come (that is, if a certain apartment complex is EVER finished). But I'm taking it all in stride.

1 Goal Down

I had to update a little on the list now because I can actually say that I successfully completed one goal.

60. Create something for Hannah to put in her room.
Status: Complete
Date completed: 3/14/2010

I made Hannah a trinket/treasure box on March 12th and gave it to her on March 14th (thus the completion date- I considered it complete when I gave it to her). I really like how it turned out. I've always wanted to try using Modge Podge and scrapbook paper, and this was the perfect small project for that. I also got to use my new paper cutter. :) I'm such a dork when it comes to crafts, haha.

And I know that this is only one goal out of 101 completed (although I am incredibly close to finishing another), but it still feels great!

Waiting

I'm currently writing from the waiting room of the local cardiovascular intensive care unit (CVICU). And basically, the adjective that describes this room also describes what is going on in my life right now. Waiting.
Waiting on answers. Waiting on results. Waiting on guidance. Waiting on news. Waiting on whether or not my life is going to completely change. Waiting on my grandma to please get better.
I absolutely hate this. I truly do. I feel so raw. So exposed, confused, and hopeless.
I'm trying to keep something in mind that a friend I've become close to over the past month or so told me. Whether or not Grandma survives this horrible situation, Jesus died on the cross so she could be healed. And whatever the outcome, she will be healed, whether it's in Heaven with our Saviour or on earth here with us. She's going to be healed.

Month 2

Another month down, another update on the list. I still haven't completed one single task, but I've been working on them. I hope to complete one task over spring break, so we'll see. Anyway, on to the updates.
17. Watch 26 movies, each one starting with a different letter of the alphabet (3/26).

• Dear John (2-20-10)
• Facing the Giants
• Valentine's Day (2-12-10)
  

31. Give someone a thank-you card once a month (2/33).

• My mom (January 2010)
  

• My second thank-you card went to my preceptor for my Management clinical rotation, Loretta. (February 2010)

38. Go to the movies at least 5 times a year (2/15).

• Valentine's Day (2-12-10)
• Dear John (2-20-10)

41. Learn one new word a month (2/33).

• Panacea (January 2010)
• Gelid (jel-id)- adjective- extremely cold; icy. (February 2010)